During the beginning of March, my employer sat me down and asked me when they relocate in January will I be coming along with them. I let her know that I wouldn’t be due to the location they are moving to which is 30 minutes away but traffic is horrible so it would take me about 2 hours to get to work and back home- no way would I want a commute like that! So, my employer informed me that now would be the best time to start looking for a job and not wait until the last minute and end up with something I do not want. She also wants to write a highly thoughtful recommendation letter for me to whomever I would like to work for (she doesn’t know anything about my blogs).
Now, here is how reality hit me. I have been comfortable these past 7 years with my job and always had a set mentality that if “blogging ever stopped working for me at least I have a job to lean on”. Well folks by the end of this year I will be fully self-employed without having a job and this really makes me scared of the unknown. I keep having these “what if” moments about working for myself full time. “What if the money from blogging stop coming in?” “What if Google decides to de-index me?” “What if I decide staying at home is not right for me?” Also, “what about medical insurance, 401K, etc?” So much is going through my mind about this transition and I’m so nervous about this since I have two kids to take care of. Mr. M is fully self-employed so his income can go up and down at times. It has been very reliable lately but at the beginning when he first started his business it wasn’t reliable at all. Good thing his business has grown quite well.
For several months now with the blogging money I’ve been earning, I have been paying down my debts and also saving it. By the end of the year I want to have a year or more worth of pay to fall back on.
Here are my March totals: